Hers and All Downs -1-

Title: Hers and All downs
Form: short story
Type: series
Cast: Fancilos, her coat, and all downs
By: NoRa Ahmad
       

      -1-

"Is it fair or..?" felt Fancilos at the moment she got kicked hard from her mom for no reason. Before her dear friend she ran away with a question unspoken. Unanswered. Is it fair or..?  it merely can't be completed! She headed her messy room struggling to not to cry. It's neither the first nor the last. After two minutes of keeping the pain inside, she lost the challenge! Sadness disappeared when she saw her coat waiting for her. "you are always the only one who waits for me" said Fancilos with smile while wiping her tears " I hate you!".

 Her tired coat lying next to an unopened window. It's a coat but a caring friend for her though she hates it! She took it on and slept crying.

   "Wake up cow! You've got school to catch" screamed mom. "I'm up. I always am" replied with mixed feelings of exhaustion and anger. Today morning is as the last. Cold, blurred and heavy raining. The coat was hanged strongly between her little hands. At the school door, clique of girls were goggling together. She wanted to hide herself before they notice her existence. " Hey Fancilos" called Jolie." h..hi" she acted uncaring and walked. " you want to play with us" "ha? M..me?" " yes, you" said Jolie and laughed loudly with her friends. Fancilos held a grip and agreed to play. Actually she was excited it may be the point that change her status quo. She threw her bag , her coat as well as her fear and started to run with others. It's more like the first time she laughed from the depth of her hurt heart . it's new world of adventures. "Oh! Is it happiness?" said Fancilos with her innocent eyes looking up to the sky. She couldn't believe she is playing and having fun with others after two years of being alone and insulted since she went to school. " I'll befriend the pretty girl" smiled Fancilos and suddenly she stumbled falling upon Jolie. A moment of shocking silence.   Jolie's friends went to help her. "Is it blood? Am I bleeding? It feels so good!" thought Fancilos when Jolie stood up surrounded by her angry friends " you freaky fat ball! I won't let you play with us anymore. You almost killed me" cried Julie and her friends calming  her down. They walked away and…very much away!

"What just happened?" Wailing unconsciously " for moment I was experiencing friendship and the other moment I simply got left behind hurtful and bleeding". She gripped herself wiping her tears as well as her blood and walked to grab her stuff. "You're still here for me?" talked to her coat and burningly cried "I hate you!".

In the first class , " Fancilos?" called teacher " the principle wants to see you now". She went there after she covered her bleeding hands with her coat. Fancilos was step behind the principle door. She stood beside the door thinking. The coat end was shown as if it's trying to tell about Fancilos. "come in Fancilos" called principle. Fancilos stepped forward and shockingly saw Julie the pretty girl crying there. "What did you do to Julie?" Fancilos looked at Julie with wild eyes. "damn! She is beautiful when she cries too" thought Fancilos silently. "Fancilos ,answer me" "I did not d.. do an…anythin.." Stammering Fancilos. " she lies Mum , I swear she was trying to hurt me because I'm prettier" Julie continued her falsehood while Fancilos was pained until the way her tears were dropping down unintentionally. The principle calming Julie down " we're not allowing such violent behavior in my school" continuously " I'll banish you. Open your hands!". Fancilos was still under shock. " do I have to get banished for something I didn't do?" series of thoughts carrying on " all I wanted is to befriend the pretty girl and now I have to pay the price. Well, it won't hurt more than getting left behind!" Out of sudden, the coat that covered Fancilos bleeding hands fell down. "What is this?" asked the principle. Words were hid behind the principle's tongue. "oh, Fancilos! I won't banish you but don't repeat such a thing". She picked her coat and walked away. "you saved me, why?" single tear dropped down " I hate You!". 

Fancilos once heard that life is ups and downs. It's still under the process of figuring

Out. "is it true?" asked Fancilos " or should it be true? I felt the up thing once" with closed eyes she recalled " I don't want to feeling again". Looking at her stained coat "hey, don't you want to disappear for one day?" she laughed at her miserable self.